Setsunai Koi...

I fell in love once at the age of 16… and haven’t fallen out yet. There’s something setsunai about the fact that I have not truly loved once since then, but he has loved so many. Itsumade mo omotteru ano hito. Mou 12 nen wattatekite watashi wa 30sai to iu tobira no mae ni tatteru. Soko de kejime tsukete kare to ishou ni tobira o kugururou to shiou ka, sore tomo mou kako no koto o wasurete maemuki ni mirai e to fumidasuka, ketsuron o dasu made jikkuri kangaete, I have to make a decision. Mou konokoto hikuzuru no ga yada. Datte tatoe dare to isho ni natte mo, dare to tsukiatte mo kare ga itsumo watashi no kokoro no jyama ni natteshimaun da. Hontou ni suki nano ka… Hontou ni kare o mite, “kono hito iina” toka, kare no koto o shitteru no ka wakaranai. What is it really? What is the pull, what is the real reason? Do I really want to try my hand at something like this? Koko kara fumidasu yuuki o motte iipo susmu beki ka. Is it just the anticipation that is making me feel like there’s something there? Is it just "maboroshi no nikuman"... taishita kono nakatta, tabenai hou ga oishikatta... maboroshi no mama ga iinokana? Itsumo me de otte, itsumo yume o mite, itsumo kangaete, tada sono mama kataomoi no hou ga iinokana? Fukai kizutsuku kamo shirazu chanto hontou no koto o hakkiri tsutaetemiru ka, soretomo nanimo iwanaide asai kizu o hibi kanjinagara sono kizu o umetekureru hito o sagasuka? Soshite sore hodo na impact aru hito wa ittai doko ni iru ka? Atama masshiro...

Hajimemashite, yoroshiku onegai shimasu..... nante~!

Tabun daremo yondekurenaito omou kedo ^_^

Watashi no namae wa "Nanto Mukokuseki" desu. Jitsu wa hontou Canada umare no Nihonjin desu. Ichiou Nihon no Kokuseki motteru ga... Ni-jyuu kokuseki nandakedo...

Imakara watashi no blog o yonde kureru hito ni maemotte ayamarimasu....
1) Itsumo eigo shabetteru no de, tokitodi hen na nihongo tsukaimasu.
2) Tamani nihongo de hyougen dekinai kotoba, kimochi nado wa kyuu ni eigo de kaki masu.
3) Watashi wa totemo wagamama de oshaberi de... tabun minna mo ira ira suru toki mo aru kamo.
4) Tabun watashi no BLOG wa "Koko ga Hendayo Nihonjin/Canadajin" no hitori shiabai ni natte shimau kamo.
5) Watashi wa igai to cool na ningen dakedo ikinari atsuku natte chotto kusai "dramappoi serifu" wo kaiteshimau koto mo aru.
6) Sometimes I'll feel like it's the end if the world, and sometimes I'll feel like I've won the lottery, so pre-apologizing for the occasional Bi-Polar-ness of this blog
7) Nankakokugo shaberu kara, tamani nohingo, English, Espanol, Francais, Deutch, Tagalog, GuanDong, mandarin no kotoba mo detekuru kara....
8) Well truthfully, anything else that you can think of...

So, having said that, welcome to my schizo tale of happiness, sadness, kurushimi, nayami, omoide, thought, challenges, hansei, goals, koi no yume, and all that other stuff.

ENJOY!